Friday, August 19, 2011

4 months

Wow hard to believe how fast time is flying. Baby A. went to the pediatrician yesterday. He is doing great! He weighs 14 lbs and 14 oz (40% percentile), His height is 25 1/2 inches (65% percentile).

Today we tried rice cereal with a spoon for the first time. After the intial bite I thought it might be a hit, but after bite number 2, he decided that the food was not coming fast enough and demanded a pacha! We got it on video so when he is 13 and eating us out of house and home we can show him how he rejected "real food" in his early days:) We'll try again later today!

He has continued to sleep through the night most days of the week. It has been really nice!!! Especailly since I am returning to work on Monday.

Monday I return to work and Tuesday Ashton goes to Ms. Helen's daycare. Big changes for everyone in the Gjerde household.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Happiness is baby squeals!

What a joy Ashton is! He is currently 3.5 months. He is getting so big! He continues to eat ALL the time (about every 2 hours)! Olav and I were saying at this rate he is going to be 7 feet tall:)

He had earned the nickname baby bobble head, for his adorable head bobs, but now his head is getting so much stronger I don't think he will be baby bobble head for too much longer!

He recently moved out of the basinett in our room and into his crib in his own room. The transition was much easier than anticipated thanks to daddy doing it while Lily and I were at the beach.

My ultimate favorite right now is the baby squeals. Ashton starts each day so happy and full of joy...he is frequently squealing and giggling with delight!

Ashton has found his hands and fingers and can occassionally self soothe himself by jamming his fist into his mouth!

The past two nights Ashton has slept through the entire night. From 9-5 the first night and 8-4 the second night. This evening though he could barely keep his eyes open at 7 p.m. so hopefully this string of nights continues!

He is also very close to rolling over...I can no longer put him on the bed and trust that he will stay in the same position!

So far baby A is such an easy going child. Being the 2nd child with a much older sibling, he frequently gets dragged around to wherever big sister Lily is...but he handles in for the most part with grace! I pray this is fortelling of a calm and easy going personality:)

Friday, July 1, 2011

Getting so big!



Baby A. is getting so big! It feels like he is hungry all the time! A few weeks ago were a little rough with constant crying, but now that period has past and he has been an angel! So happy and content. Smiling! Really enjoying him! Plus he has begun to develop a routine for the night time, which has been really helpful! Some nights he will sleep up to 6 hours! Heavenly!!!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Ashton's Heir Day



Well today marks a joyous occassion. Today was Ashton's gotcha day...now affectionally referred to as Ashton's Heir Day. The day Ashton officially became a Gjerde and as Olav likes to say...an Heir to the Gjerde throne/empire. Or as I like to joke...the day Ashton officially became a tax deduction!

It was really nice, both Ashtons' birth parents were there, as well as Pop Pop and Lily.

We are so thankful to God for His amazing providence in our lives!

In other news Ashton is growing really well! At his 2 month check up last Friday, he weighed 10.5 lbs and was 22 inches long. He is really moving up in the height percentiles! He moved up to the 50% percentile. I think he is going to be tall and thin like his birth father.

I loved Ashton the day he was born, but I find myself falling more and more in love with him each day! It's so cool how he knows me now! It just melts my heart! If he is crying in someone elses arms and then I hold him, almost every time he immediately calms down. Also Ashton is beginning to smile. It is sooo cute! He also is trying to roll over...Olav said he did, but I missed it!

What a blessing it is to enjoy these stages with him!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Update

Well we survived the revocation week! Yeah! According to my attorney she mailed our homestudy to the court on Monday and we should hear back from the court in about two weeks a court date to finalize the adoption.

I tell you, I am still pinching myself. Who I am Lord, that your are mindful of me! I just can't believe you have given me the gift of a newborn infant.

Baby A. is doing great! He is getting sooo big! I love when he tries to maneuver his hands into his mouth. He has a new nickname. Grunt! When he was smaller he barely cried or made a sound, now 5 weeks later he grunts all the time!

Baby A. and his parents completed their first huge parenting milestone and went family tent camping on a damp, wet, and windy weekend in Lancaster, PA. Hopefully our next trip will have better weather, but we had fun nonetheless!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Good news so far this week!

I am praying that the good news continues!

First of all, Mother's Day was lovely! I loved every minute of it. It ended up just being bm and us, but it truly was a delightful day! I think she enjoyed it too! Thank you Jesus for your providence! It was a big reminder to me that most of what I worry about never happens...so I really need to stop worrying!!!

Next, yesterday we finally received the results of the sweat test. Joyfully, baby a. does not have CF!!! Praise God!!!!

Today baby a. went to the doctor for his 1 month check up. He is doing great! He gained about 2 lbs and 2 inches. He now weights 7 lbs and 10 oz and is 20 3/4 inches! Praise God!

Tommorow is the big day. Lord I pray that you give our birthmother an overwhelming sense of peace. I pray against any anxiety that may try to disturb her soul. Lord I pray you will surround her with lots of love and support. Encourage her, uphold her, let her feeling your loving arms wrap around her.

Lord guard my heart as well. Please protect me from anxiety creeping in. Give me too an overwhelming sense of your peace. Amen

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Praying through my anxiety











Up until now I have felt relatively calm and peaceful about everything...but the last two days or so, I feel the anxiety creeping in at night while I am sleeping in the form of nightmares. Two nights ago it was about the results from the CF sweat test and last night it was about the bm changing her mind.


Lord I really want to lift this upcoming day and week to you. I want have faith that regardless of the outcome you are supreme overall.


First, I want to lift up today with our bm, her husband and her daughter. Lord, is some ways I am glad her entire family is going to join us to celebrate mother's day, but their is a small part of me that fears this is some kind of mean trick. Like she is going to convince her husband to revoke on her behalf and they decide to raise the child together. After all both bm, husband, and bio father all have revocation dates next week. Lord, I lift today up to you. I ask for a hedge of protection against any thoughts husband might have to take baby a. away. I pray that our time today is filled with fun, fullness, and joy. I pray that as we spend the day together, everyone involved will be overwhelmed with a sense of deep peace that baby a. is where he is supposed to be.


Next, I am anxiously anticipating the results of the sweat test on Monday. Lord I know I can't change the outcome. Of course like the nurse who did the sweat test, I claim in Jesus' name that he is free and clear of CF, but also knowing that we will love him and care for him regardless of the outcome. Lord give me peace while we are waiting for the results.


Lord as we are waiting for the results I do find myself anxious about the what ifs....What if he has CF...how will I tell bm and bf. Lord help me to live in the present moment. To not be anxious about anything, but rest and trust in you.


This upcoming week will be one full of anticipation and anxiety...


Monday is the results of the sweat test. Wednesday is the last day of revocation for bm. Thursday is the last day of revocation for bm's husband. And Friday is the last day of revocation for bf.


Once again Lord, I pray you fill our bm with an overwhelming sense of peace as Wednesday rolls around. Surround her with the love and support she needs to "survive" the day. Lord help me not to fret or worry...fill me with a sense of peace...for I know your ways are not my ways...thank you in advance for your faithfulness.


Lord for Thursday, I just pray that it really isn't an issue. I pray that it comes and goes without much notice. I pray for bm husband. I pray that search his heart and make it clean in thought and motive.


Lord, originally I hadn't been nervous for bf, but I find myself increasly nervous not because of him, but because of his mother. Since she called my lawyer last week, I have the fear that she will talk her son into revoking the adoption so that she can raise baby a. In some ways Lord I can see how a spiritual battle could be raging. Lord I pray that all the things I am fearful of...are just that...silly fears that I have let enter my mind. Lord I pray that you are sovereign. That you will make your sovereignty known.


Thank you Lord for allowing me to spill my yuckis before you...Lord help me to rest in you...to look up to you....to have my hope and faith in you. Lord I want to believe that this is all going to work out "my way". But Lord, I know I have to put my trust in you...and know that regardless of the result...you are ultimately in control. Let me rest in that.


Amen